August

I haven't shed so many tears in one month like I did this past August. Happy tears, sad tears, scared tears; you name it. Although I am trying to stay very positive for the next week to come (I've been doing really good!), I've had to let myself cry a few times, at random moments, too.  I've said it before and I will say it again: this is one of the hardest things I've done in my life, as of yet. I mean, I've held two jobs while going to school full time and supporting my father and this decision is up there, if not at the same level. This past month I have found myself saying goodbye (for now) to most of my friends and it's been a hell of a summer. For those of you who I have had the chance to hang out with and tell you how much I love you, know that I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I can't express, enough, how happy and grateful I am to have the support of all my friends and family (Even you, KevinJD.)

I have never been really "mushy" or showed much PDA as far as my relationship goes, but this past year is an exception. Because I don't care. I have to say that suddenly crying while at dinner or watching a movie is not getting any easier. But Trenton has just been here for me through EVERYTHING. We talked about my decision to go away for the Peace Corps for the past two years so you'd think it'd get easier, right? No, it doesn't. It scares me to death to leave him and to leave everything I am familiar with for the next 27 months. I have to say that I have really been lucky to have him by my side as my friend these past 6 years. If there is anyone who has wholeheartedly supported me in any situation, it is him. I kept telling him how scared I'd be to lose touch and lose constant communication with him and yesterday he gave me the coolest gift. He got us both bracelets that vibrate at the exact same time, every day, so that I'd always be connected to him and so that we'd always have a way of remembering each other each time it shook. What an awesome gift. And what an awesome man.

So Trenton, I'm sorry I told the web about us, but thank you for the gift of friendship and love you have so unconditionally given me and continue to give me. I hope we are forever weird and silly with each other while we go out and save the world. ;p